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After a rather extended period of time silently dealing with less than appropriate behavior from certain other people I feel that I should address a few points in public forum to make myself absolutely clear. For those of you to which the following does not apply, please feel free to ignore the following. However, I do suggest that the few at whom this is addressed do pay close attention, as you have no one to harm but yourselves in not doing so.
Throughout the course of nearly the entire last year I have continually dealt with verbal and written harassment from certain sources which shall, upon this public forum, remain unnamed. These insensitive remarks have been made entirely by telephone communications using a phone that does not belong to the proponent of these acts but that of a family member, preventing me from knowing exactly who is calling or texting me and, in turn, leading me to the conclusion that it is better if I simply do not answer such calls or texts.
These insulting messages focus entirely on attempting to anger or belittle me using slurs and degrading terminology in regards to my sexual orientation however providing no reasoning, logic, or even contextual situations to apply these insults toward leaving me faced with blatant ignorance and nothing more. Despite your obvious hatred and bigotry, I would like to express the following three words before I continue my letter and, should you only take three words from this entire document, I want these to be the three you choose:
I forgive you.
With that in mind, I wish to inform yon what continued expression of this ignorant bigotry will mean for you and, more importantly, those who you proclaim to care for.
Your hypocritical practices brought me to the conclusion long ago that i shall no longer have any direct communication witness you. Unfortunately, in order to take this to it's farthest extreme, I am forced to remove firm my life all of those individuals which you might use to perpetuate your bigotous ways. The amount of hatred and and rage that seep from you like pus from a wound destroy not only yourself, but all that which you come into concoct with as well. As such, I can no longer allow myself to be kept in any form of contact with you and allow that judgmental ignorance to seep into my life that it may harm others who, like myself, are undeserving of such wrath. I must pity those who will be harmed by my inability to speak to them due to your ignorance, however they have made their choices. I can only do so much to protect the innocent, they must also work to heed my advice, which some have not done, and thus they have made their own beds to lie in.
I will end this by saying that I truthfully do pity you and your inability to see for the anger that clouds your eyes. No man should be forced to live in a world full of such hatred, however you have refused aid and gentle hands time and time again, and you are no longer my charge to watch after. I wish to express my deepest grievances at the future to come in which, when the world may end for you, you yourself shall not and the world to come will only serve to prove the error of your ways. No man should be force to live as you do, and neither should any man have the right to destroy the lives of so many. I express my apologies to you and to those who you have brought down with you. May you all one day find the truth that you all so deeply lack now. You are forgiven in my heart and set free into the world, alone as you would wish it.
You are in my prayers and my heart, but never again shall you be in my mind, or my ear, or my sight.
Always the sinner,
Never the saint;
Student Dr. John F. Clay II
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